Oh where to even begin.....

Tonight was the first time I had a chance to really talk to Jer without things being so crazy.  We had a chance to share how thankful we are that so many miracles have kept Andrea here with us...and baby Ben also.  There were many things that I did not know about, and feel like it is too sacred for me to share, but I do know that Andrea and Jeremy are in tune with the spirit.  I know, after hearing more details, that it is more of a miracle than I realized that we still have Andrea and baby Ben with us.  I can't stop crying because I know we have been blessed far beyond what we deserve. 

As Jeremy told me of the many things that the Dr's. have said to him....Dr's. that are not members of our church, but recognize that there was no way that Andrea and Ben should have made it, and I continue to cry tears of gratitude.

Andrea got to see Ben for the first time tonight, and she was thrilled to see him, but it was also scary to see how tiny he is and how he is fighting to live.  We continue to pray always for him.  True joy will come when he can join this cute crew out on the lawn......although we know that is a long ways away.  However, I have faith that he will make it and someday he will join them in all of the fun.

 

 

I got to talk to Jake for a few minutes tonight.  He is 10 and he is understanding a lot of what is going on and I can feel that he is knowing  all is not well.  He wasn't able to see the baby when they saw their mom tonight, and he knows that isn't normal.  I am truly praying for all of them to find some peace in this time of uncertainty.  I wish I could give him a hug and reassure him that everything will one day be "normal" again. 
I would feel  very ungrateful if I didn't thank all of you for your love, prayers, and concern.  I don't know that I have ever felt such an abundance of love from so many people.   We love you all and are so very thankful for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers.  Please continue to pray for our sweet little Ben.  He has a long fight ahead of him and we love him so much already.