Tests...

I just received an update from Jer.  It isn't good.  Ben is alive but he is on a machine that is breathing for him.  He has been having seizures which is a huge concern because they believe they are caused from his lack of oxygen.  They are doing a lot of TESTS on him to see what is going on with him.  I can't really comprehend that yesterday at this time we were just getting ready to bring him home......and we were so full of joy (even though we were nervous) and now he is so critical and we are not knowing what the outcome will be.  I called all of the family as soon as it happened....and we are all fasting and praying for him...along with many dear  friends.  We know it is in our Heavenly Father's hands but it isn't keeping me from falling a part.....I must try to be stronger.  I am not only praying so hard for Ben, but also for Andrea and Jer.   I am hurting so badly for them.  Oh how I wish I could make it all better.