Just decided...

The funeral will be Wed. morning in Beaver.  We are getting ready for the funeral here, and trying to make arrangements to get back to Beaver.  Right now I am shaky and having a hard time concentrating.  I wonder if my body is in a little shock, or just maybe too much going on and too much sadness.  I can't really put thoughts  together right now.  Maybe I will be able to write  tonight.
It is just so hard watching Jer and Andrea.  Mornings seem to be worse.  When we wake up it's almost like starting over.  I will be thankful to be  in Beaver with all of our family...that includes Ben. I know his spirit will be with us...we will all be together.