Today Benson would have been six months old. At my age, time usually passes so quickly, but I would say that the last six months have been the longest in my life. I think that it is actually harder to think about Andrea and Jeremy's pain than my own. Perhaps it is because I am getting older and I don't think it will be so long until I see him again. I also think it is because my perspective has changed so much. I feel Ben around me all the time. I just know he is with his family and with all of us...if we could just have the veil lifted. That also gives me the comfort of knowing when it is my time to leave this existence...I will remain close to all of my family here (even though they won't see me....I will be here as their guardian angel). I don't know why I didn't see things like this when my mom passed away. There were definitely times when I knew she was with us, but I didn't feel like she was constantly with us the way I do now.
Still, it breaks my heart as I miss Ben, and as we all miss him....especially Andrea, Jer, and the boys.I continue to pray constantly for them to find comfort and peace.
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