old Christmas Letters...............

It seems our lives have been divided into before we had suffered such pain, and after.  I think it will always be like that.  It is hard to think we will never have an entire family picture again, without having Ben photo shopped into the picture.  I saw a picture of Jaden and Lacy Edwards at the cemetery....They had their 3 living children by the graves of their 3 children that are buried there, and I thought, "How do they smile and carry on?"  Then I thought, "How does Susan smile and carry on?"  I know I can't imagine what they have been through.  I pray I never know.