I would be....

hysterical if I didn't KNOW THAT YOUR FAMILY AND ALL OF US WILL BE WITH YOU FOREVER!  OH HOW WE LOVE YOU SWEET....SWEET BEN!  It really doesn't get any easier.  As I talk with others that have gone through this, the general theme is that it takes years before the pain becomes softer.  However, I am so thankful for my SURE KNOWLEDGE that this life is just a little hiccup in the eternal scheme of things, and that our precious Ben did not need to be tested (we are being tested...but he did not need that).  We only need to live each day, one day at a time, striving to keep the commandments to love and serve one another.