Being Honest.?

We are so blessed, but this is my journal.  I am grateful for each person in our family!  I love them all so much, but I have had a rough week.  I have been thinking of Ben so much...like always...but sometimes I feel more teary than other times.  This week has been a teary one as I grieve for our loss and grieve for Jer and Andrea.  Nothing will ever be like the old normal....this is our new normal and I am having a hard time accepting it.  There is just such pain.