Praying...

for the second coming to come soon.  I know that sounds negative, but the funeral services for Sister Castro were held today (Lisa's Mom).  I can't stop thinking about their pain.  Jer and Andrea have been texting with the family, and I can't imagine how much they wish they could be there because I wish I could be there.  This temporary separation from our family....that we call death...is so very painful for the ones left behind.  It seems like there has been so much of it lately that I have just started praying for the second coming when we can all be reunited with our loved ones.  I know I am not living my life so that I am ready for that event....but still...I wish it could just be here.  It is so hard to hurt like this and it is so hard to watch others hurt with this indescribable pain.
I am so thankful that I know that we will be with our loved ones forever.  I am thankful to feel the spirit of the Holy Ghost in my life, the comforter.  He holds me together when I feel like I am falling a part.  I am grateful for Shad and how he helps me when I get feeling depressed...which is part of this process we call grief.
Since I have felt so much depression since Ben passed away, and I know I will always feel that emptiness, my New Year's Resolution is going to be to think of something positive each time I have a depressing thought.  I have so many blessings that it will not be hard to do...I just need to "buck up" and make sure I counter the depression with the good things.  Most importantly...my family and testimony!