GREAT TIMES IN MCALLEN...

OUR LIVES ARE DIVIDED IN TO TWO PARTS ...BEFORE BEN PASSED AWAY...AND AFTER HE PASSED AWAY.  IT IS LIFE CHANGING.  IT WILL ALWAYS BE THAT WAY BECAUSE IT CHANGED US IN SO MANY WAYS.  FOR ME....SOME OF THOSE CHANGES ARE SAD BECAUSE I HAVE THIS EMPTY PLACE IN MY HEART. I FEEL TEARY AND INCOMPLETE.  NOT ALL OF THE CHANGES ARE BAD.  I REALLY SEE THIS LIFE AS A SHORT TIME WHERE WE ARE TESTED AND REALIZE IT IS SHORT AND OUR ONLY GOAL IS TO ENJOY OUR FAMILY THAT ARE HERE AND LIVE SO THAT WE CAN BE TOGETHER FOREVER WITH BEN!  THAT IS EASILY SAID...BUT HARD TO DO.  I FALL SHORT IN SO MANY WAYS AND I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE ATONEMENT MORE THAN EVER IN MY LIFE.  NOT ONLY DID JESUS MAKE UP THE DIFFERENCE FOR US....HE KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT WE ARE GOING THROUGH AND HE IS WILLING TO CARRY THAT GRIEF WITH US.   I HAVE A GREATER LOVE FOR MY OLDER BROTHER, JESUS, THAN EVER BEFORE.