Grief is not only emotional......it is very physical!

As I was going through some pictures for my blog, I stumbled on this picture that one of the grandkids had taken of me 3 and 1/2 years ago.   It was after I had been diagnosed being borderline diabetic and I had been so good to eat the way I should and exercise.  I lost 35 lbs.  I had kept 25 of those pounds off until Ben passed away.....and within 5 months,....I was back to my original .....all time high .....weight.  I have decided that I use food for comfort.  When nothing seems to make me feel that comfort ....I turn to food.  I don't know why I continue to do that because it doesn't bring comfort...just guilt.  I have got to find another....healthy way....to try to find that comfort I need.  Maybe there will just be no comfort for a long time.  Food is just making me FATTER...NOT HAPPY!